It’s amazing how the mind can bring on so many emotions…
Yesterday was an ordinary Friday, well almost. Woke up my son early in the morning, as he had to get ready for school. But when he came up I noticed he was not well, feverish, felt somethig in his throat and had a headache, so I sent him back to his bed instead. But this is not about my son.
My Mom has her routines, and every week-day, she gives me her morning-paper after she read it. About the same time every day too. When she did not show up, I started to call her, but no answer. I knew she had not gone out shopping as she always come by or call me to ask if I need something in the store. So I kept calling…. and again, no answer.
I think I did call about 5 times around 15 minutes. And every time I called and no answer my pulse started to get up. Suddenly I got these pictures in my head, what if something had happened? Maybe she was really ill or had fallen and couldn’t get up. Or the worse! What if she suddenly passed away!!
I were really choked up and started to panicing. What to do? Do I dare to run down to her home, what would I see when I opened the door? Should I call someone in my family to go and check on her? But eventually I decided, I HAVE to go to her! Just when I were getting my jacket on, she opened my door and stood there with the morning-paper! I asked her with almost anger in my voice “Where the heck have you been? Why didn’t you answer the phone?” Fear can often turn into anger.
My Mom had been outside shoveling snow all this time!
Afterwards I felt so reliefed! But also thought it is truly amazing how the mind can play with the feelings.