… that is how I feel some times. Been trying to think back, way back in time to remember if I’ve always been like this, and I think so.
I also were a very shy child, so I think that has been a part of it. But then again, I’ve always had many friends actually! So it is kind of strange… In my early teenage years actually some of my friends were fighting of who could be with me and do something lol. But that was OFF school and they were younger than me.
In school I had a few friends but will admit I always felt a bit like an outsider cause in school I were very shy and insecure…
But going back to NOW, I still have many friends. Many I do know for many years and I think they are pretty close. I have a few that are more close and I feel I can open up to them which is nice.
Still some days I just drift away, and that means from the computer and phone. I guess we all need some “me-time” to ponder about things, take a break or what ever. But lately I have felt more need to do that and I wonder why? Am I starting to get unsociable? Nah, I really do not think so, but who knows.
Were thinking deeper about it the other day, and could it be like so that I’ve been hurted many times in my life, both from ex bf’s and friends been backstabbing me too, so maybe I am in a way thinking better that I leave first before anyone else leave me?
Sometimes I think I just think too much!! But that’s just who I am…